"Because here’s the thing about realizing you’re into girls. Hardly anyone I know has ever said, “Am I gay?” in the same way they say, “Hey, do you know what the weather’s supposed to be like tomorrow?” Like they just need to figure out how to dress for the occasion. No, when most people ask, “Am I gay?” they ask it with the kind of urgency they would usually reserve for things like, “Do I strap this parachute to my back and jump from this free falling airplane or do I nose dive into the ocean and hope the sharks don’t eat my remains? SINK OR SWIM? LIVE OR DIE? QUENCH THE FIRE OR BURN ALIVE?” It feels so urgent, and the reason it feels so urgent is because you’re probably not just asking, “Hey, do I want to make out with other girls?”
 
You’re also probably asking: What the hell are my parents going to say when I tell them I want to kiss other girls? And my friends and my co-workers and my classmates and everyone at my family reunion? And what’s that girl going to say when I tell her I want to kiss her? And how is my life ever going to be OK, and how can I go on being the same, and am I the same, and what else do I not know about what’s alive inside me? And who will still love me and who will start hating me, and is God involved, or the government maybe, and what if it’s only one girl I want to kiss, and how do I label myself and must I label myself, and what if I change my mind and, really, what if I do burn alive?"

- Heather Hogan

 

  1. i-havenothingtosay reblogged this from adeathwaltz
  2. lessonsfromthelatenight reblogged this from la-the-panda
  3. kneeltocondition reblogged this from go-please-stay
  4. go-please-stay reblogged this from that-sickening-sprawl
  5. eros-arils reblogged this from adeathwaltz
  6. shewolf-nina reblogged this from adeathwaltz
  7. adeathwaltz reblogged this from tegansaraaficionadolexie
  8. tegansaraaficionadolexie reblogged this from feel-it-in-my-bones47
  9. that-sickening-sprawl reblogged this from feel-it-in-my-bones47
  10. saraquinruinedmylife reblogged this from feel-it-in-my-bones47
  11. feel-it-in-my-bones47 reblogged this from chapterthirteenth
  12. hopaplanetomars reblogged this from la-the-panda
  13. chapterthirteenth reblogged this from la-the-panda
  14. berniehoff reblogged this from idonteat-snails
  15. enigmesansfin reblogged this from idonteat-snails
  16. idonteat-snails reblogged this from la-the-panda
  17. sesame-says-me reblogged this from tegan-or-sara
  18. uswntbadass20 reblogged this from la-the-panda
  19. ohjeeeeez reblogged this from tegan-or-sara
  20. goifyouwanticantstopyou reblogged this from sarenequin
  21. thesecondthingsandthesevendeadly reblogged this from ars-gratia-artiis